Saturday, December 28, 2013

S'ghetti Squash Bake

If you follow this blog's Facebook page, you will know I made dinner last night using spaghetti squash and y'all wanted to know the recipe. And if you're not following my Facebook blog page...for shame! Here it is, The 218 lb Elephant, now go "like" and spread the love!

Here is the recipe blog as promised!

This is totally hubby approved. Brent even went back and got a seconds! I asked if we need to work this into our dinner rotation. His responded with a hell yeah! LOL!

I've never written a recipe blog so this should be interesting!

Preheat the oven to 375.

Cut 1-2 whole spaghetti squashes lengthwise. (For a family of two I should've just used one because we still have enough for another dish.)
Scrap out the seeds and membrane. (It looks like a pumpkin inside.)

Line a cookie baking tray with aluminum foil.
Place the spaghetti squash halves on cookie sheet, with the insides facing up.
Salt, pepper, and olive oil to taste. (I used  just something like Pam.)

Place in oven for 45-60 minutes or until the squash is tender. (It took about an hour for 2 squashes.)

Once cooked completely.
Pull out the squash and let it cook for a few minutes. (I let it cool for about 20 minutes or so.)
Grab a fork a scrap the inside into a bowl or frying pan. (I prepped my "noodles" in the morning, so I put them in a bowl and covered them.)

S'ghetti Bake Prep:
Preheat or turn down oven to 350

Place "noodles" in a frying pan.
Sprinkle basil, oregano, garlic powder, and a tablespoon of olive oil over the "noodles".
Cook until consistency you like your regular noodles to be. (We like our regular noodles soft so I cooked them for maybe 10 minutes.)

In another pan brown up some ground beef, turkey breast, or chicken breast. Depending on your taste.

Back to the "noodle" pan.
Once the "noodles" are how you like them.
Add spaghetti sauce and other spaghetti ingredients you like. (I added just mushrooms)
Stir all the ingredients together, add your meat, and place in a glass pan to bake it. (I just used a Pyrex pie one.)

Top with favorite cheese. (We used parmesan and shredded cheddar.)
Place in oven and pull out when the cheese is all melty and gooey!

Serve it up and enjoy!
We paired ours with cheesy garlic bread from the store.

Bon Appetit!

I hope you enjoy it as much as we did.
Let me know what you think and if these types of blogs are something y'all are interested in, and if so I'll add them into the rotation?

Friday, December 27, 2013

Does Your Skin Hang Low, Does It Wobble to the Floor...

As we all know I've lost close to 200 pounds.
Not bragging...okay maybe a little! :)
But that gift comes with a curse.


I've wanted to touch on this subject because lately I've been finding clothes/bra shopping to be a big pain in my shrinking ass. But I wasn't quite sure on how to get it into words. So here goes.

Yes I have extra skin, wearing the right clothes, apparently I hide it well. Awesome! I don't mind that...but the clothes do come off and I'm reminded. Normally I let it roll off my backs, and go with it because I much rather has this issue than one foot in the grave.
I'm not regretting my decision to have surgery at all! This is the price I pay to have my healthy life and I would do it again every single time.

But when clothing/bra companies don't take extra skin into their clothing gets kind of frustrating. Such as trying to find a pretty, non granny, non sports bra. Because sometimes I want to wear normal clothes and pretty dresses and sports bras don't look that good under those types of clothes.

Case and point: I've gone to Victoria's Secret and Lane Bryant several months ago and recently to get properly fitted. Those 2 companies have fitted me buuuuuuuuut their bras don't fit right.
My skin runneth over.
Or my boobs don't fill the cup.
Or they do but they spill over on the side.
Or their just plain uncomfortable.
Or their just stupid.
Or their just not right.

I've been measured at several different times. I *think* I'm some where around 38 C/D...maybe? But when I try on those sizes, either the cup size is too big or too small. Hell the waist band size is too big but the 36 is too tight. And I want high sides...actually I need high sides so my side boob skin stays in place.

Is that to much to ask for? To have a bra where I don't have to tuck in my extra skin.

Shirts I'm fine with...I actually can fit in a Medium!! HOLLA!!!!

Pants/Shorts/Skirts are another blog all together. I have a couple stomachs. To give you a better picture, my belly button gets lost in all that extra skin. I have a fat apron! Where my lower stomach skin hangs over like an apron. I've heard women who have had C-sections have this same problem. 

My thighs, my strong strong thighs. That have held me at my highest and have grown stronger with each run...fall victim to this extra skin epidemic. I call them "thigh balls" but it's just extra skin from my thighs that just hang there like a set of balls. 

My "thigh balls" and the fat apron are the most painful. Because I get rashes and yeast infections in there. So medically I'm pretty sure those spots are covered with insurance. But my boobs and arms...those are just vanity surgeries.

Yes I'm looking into skin removal surgeries. But that is several years down the road. I rather have kids first then go through the surgeries and stretch it all out again. So until then I'm going to bitch, tuck, and camouflage my latest nemesis.

Again. Not regretting my decision for Gastric Bypass at all but if you're going to lose about 200're going to have to extra skin. It's just frustrating when you just want a bra that fits right!

Well off to go tuck in stomachs and join the human race today!

So Long 2013, It's Been Real and Fun!

Here is my annual end of the year recap.

For the Johnstons 2013 was all about continued wed bliss. We celebrated 2 years of marriage in June. We've had a relatively low key year. Nothing to exciting. Brent is still loving his job. He got a new route and has been prospering there. He's grown so much.
He really is the best.
We were able to pay ALL our bills off this year. We are debt free. Naturally, we're saving for a house now and new car for me...hopefully! :) Outside of our normal living expense we don't have to throw money away to those evil credit card companies! Lol! Just a student loan company...which is just as bad! But I've started to coupon! Santa got me a binder for Christmas, so I'm super OCD organized! I'm going to be taking that into full force in 2014...grow my stockpile!

Our families have hit a couple bumps in the road but everyone seems to recovering and 2014 should be an incredible year for them. We love seeing our nephew and niece grow up and be little hellions! It's been so much fun watching them become little people. Boy, do my sister and brother in law have their hands full!! HAHAHA! 

As for me 2013 has been such an incredible year. I've achieved so many things that I never thought I would achieve! From losing 100 pounds by January 2013 to quitting my job to training for a half marathon to celebrating being 1 year post op. This has been an incredible year health wise for me. I'm the healthiest I've been my adult life...hell my WHOLE life. My regular doctor is super impressed with all my progress, my surgeon and his team are all blown away, and I'm just plain proud of myself. If you told me a year ago all this would've happened...I wouldn't have believed you.

I've tried so many things I never thought I would do. I'm emerged from the fat cocoon. I'm training for my half marathon in March, I'm cooking and trying new foods, My style is completely different. Okay well not really, I'm mostly in work out clothes now but I'm actually using them for their purpose. I chopped my hair off, which I liked but I think I liked my long hair more. I'm taking care of a student loan, so I can go back to school in Fall 2014. And all this happened in ONE year...I can't imagine what 2014 is going to have in store. I don't know if it can top the past couple of years.
But we'll see...Let's go 2014!!

Lastly, I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions because I don't stick to them and honestly I've achieved the only one I use to set.
Losing weight.
This year, and from here I out, I'm setting goals.

My 2014 Goals:

1. Complete my first half.
2. Train and find a full marathon.
3. Lose 200 lbs total.
4. Try a new type of exercise each month. Such as, spinning, crossfit...etc.
5. Turn my blog into something big.
6. Continue to save, with couponing and savings.
7. And to just to have the best 2014 ever.

I hope you guys have a great and successful 2014. And may 2013 go out with a bang!

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Let's Get Right to the Point

We all kind of knew the half training wasn't going to happen or my daily "what I'm eating" blogs. Clearly because it's Christmas week and I'm being slightly naughty!

The Johnstons have decided to participate in a new tradition HOLIDAY BAKING! And with baking comes test tasting. And test tasting leads to scarfing down a bajillion cookies and yummy sweet treats! And Frankentummy has been good but I haven't. I've been pumping myself up with all these delicious evil treats, that make me feel yucky,  and BLAH. SO by doing that I'm neglecting the proper nutrition I need. Like high and lean proteins, low carbs, healthy carbs...etc. A fine example of what I've been doing; yesterday all I ate was cookies for breakfast, lunch, and dinner was a combo of hamburger helper and sugar cookies! Yes. Dinner of champions!

But in the same breath, I can't be to pissed because it's the holidays and time for family and blah blah blah. And thankfully I've been in the same weight range, so it is REALLY that bad? Honestly for me...yes. I know me. I know what lurks under this new healthy life I've built. I know "Unhealthy Lydia" and habits are ready to come back at the drop of a hat. I know I have no self control. My self control, right now, is the fact Frankentummy can only hold so much. Thank God because my face would be stuffed with cookies and all sorts of holiday yumminess.

This seriously would be me...and honestly has been me!

Courtesy of GIFPAL

With all this being said, I don't want the holidays or my life to be about what I "can" and "can't" eat. But it has to be...that's the life I chose. That's the whole point of why I went through surgery to enjoy a long healthy life. And the price I paid for having to watch what I eat.

So to my new and faithful readers: I commit to doing better. Starting with my next meal. Because honestly my breakfast was a cupcake and cookies.
The struggle is real! So lunch will be something yummy and healthy! Dinner will be at my parents and mom said it's going to be delicious! Mom said we're having egg, cheese, sausage and hash browns for breakfast tomorrow. Brent's family is serving ham and a smorgasbord of other goodies! So my game plan is to be aware of my surrounding and eat accordingly. Then kick it to high gear, ass kicking mode on the 26th. Hitting the road and Pump Thursday morning. And good healthy high protein/low carb meals for the Hubster and I! Time to get back to my fighting weight and stop feeling like a BLAH machine!

Probably wondering what brought this on...trying on clothes this morning and getting pissed! Because I was bloated feeling and just BLAH feeling. But I'll write about that in another blog. Go and enjoy your holidays!

Have a safe and wonderful Christmas!!

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Half Marathon Training 12/20/13 - 12/21/13

There was no training yesterday or today.

Yesterday was the bake-a-thon.

Today I'll be on the road to see my Grandma. And more than likely I'll be on the road every Friday or Saturday to see her. Until I don't need to be.

So I'll have to change my schedule around during the week to have my long run another day and make Saturday just my 40 min walk. That's an easy fix and family is way more important.

Please continue to pray and positive juju for her and the family. Thanks!

Next half training post will be Monday!!


Foods for 12/20/13

I started a new tradition in the Johnston household. HOLIDAY BAKING!

I baked homemade sugar cookies, peanut butter blossoms, and haystacks. Of course they all were super yummy and of course I had to taste them all!

This was my day.

peanut butter blossoms
Pepperoni pizza

sugar cookie batter
Pepperoni pizza

chef salad!! oh yeah I had to get healthy in there some where!! :)

Sugar cookie sandwich

Needless to say it was a day lacking in protein, water, and way to much sugar. Actually at one point I did end up going into my sleeping dumping. But I chalked it up to still learning the ways of Frankentummy!

Half Marathon Training 12/19/13

Another training day in the books. I had Pump and a 3.5 mile run.

Melanie whooped my ass this morning! She came up to me afterwards to give me some pointers on how to maximize my squats and lunges! 

Apparently I've been doing squats and lunges wrong this whole time! She corrected my form and told me to try my squats without weights until I get a comfortable with the proper form. 

Alrighty then! 

Again let me say I HATE squats and lunges with ever fiber of my being!! :)

She teaches a spin class on friday mornings, so I think I'm going to venture into spinning! Still not 100% sure yet! I just don't want to over stress my legs/knees. We'll see! However since spin is on Fridays and that is usually my walking day. This may be a nice substitute for when it's yucky or when I don't want to deal with the this morning! 

As mentioned before I had a 3.5 miler. And boy I was protesting this run. It was cold, I was grumpy, driver's got to close to me, my shoes were to right, and did I mention it was cold?

I was just a grumpy runner today. My time was horrible, not that I'm concerned about that right now but still...

Public Service Annoucement:
When you are driving and you come across a runner...
MOVE OVER!!! Because sometimes there is not a sidewalk and I don't feel like falling into a ditch. Just saying!

But I finished my run after me bitching and complaining the whole time! LOL! But it's done and I survived! 

Until next time. On the books for tomorrow is a 40 minute or spin...who know what I'll feel like doing! 

Foods for 12/19/13

Overall not a bad day. Trained hard so got super hungry around lunchtime! And ate to much and Frankentummy was not a happy camper. He mellowed out and is good to go!

Syntrax cookie's n cream protein milkshake
Had it after Pump this morning. Not a good idea...kind of felt lightheaded. Didn't have milk and wasn't hungry before class. So I waited but I won't next time. 

1 egg
1/4 of spicy chicken patty
1 slice of havarti 

pepperoni pizza

Sugar free chocolate pudding
Peanut butter

overall not a bad day. kind of got super lazy and didn't feel like cooking dinner! sorry this one is late...I thought I posted it alright! lol blogger fail!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Foods for 12/18/13

This Wednesday went a lot smoother, than past ones. Only got really hungry...only because I waited so long to eat. In return I stuffed my face, ate to fast, and like clock work Franktummy reminded me about it! 
But over all relatively low carb and drank my water like a fish!

Mocha protein low carb "pancakes"

I used one of those low carb "pancake" recipes and just added Click mocha protein powder to the batter. They came out pretty good...not something I would do on a regular basis.

Greek yogurt
Honey bunches of oats
Sugar free chocolate pudding

1/2 spicy chick-fil-a patty
 Fruit cocktail

Sour cream and cheddar ruffles 

Thank goodness we ate all the haystacks! Lol Until I begin my real holiday baking for the guys are Brent's work! Lol 

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Half Marathon Training 12/17/13

On today's schedule BodyPump and a 2 mile run.

HA! I love that little girl! And sadly that's probably how I look...especially when a dog comes out of no where and scares the crap out of me!

Today was my first cross training and run on the same day! And HOLY CRAP! I'm going to be feeling this shit tomorrow!! Thankfully it was *only* 2 miles today but the .4 extra was my cool down. Not a bad time considering I went to class first then ran. I wanted my 2 miles to stay under 30 minutes and it was.
As usual it was ridiculously cold. I've noticed that my nose runs when I'm out there? Do y'all have anything like that happening? Or when I'm breathing the cold air, it gets in my lungs and feels all prickly. It doesn't hurt...just annoying. Not sure if these come with the territory of running. But thankfully later in the week it'll be back to 60-70 degrees. LOL! Which I don't mind one bit! That's all I have to say about my run.

As mentioned before, the training schedule I'm following has me doing cross training of some sort. Hal Higdon suggest it could be a walk or a gym class. I just figured I would combine the running with Pump, Flow, and Combat.
And Pump was on the schedule for today. And I haven't done Pump in MONTHS...seriously since August and boy could I feel it!

Let me go on the record and say I hate squats! I hate squats with weights! Again I hate squats with every fiber of my being. Of course, this particular class had a slew of squats. *grumble...grumble...grumble!* I love my classes but it's a nice reminder of how uncoordinated I really am. It's so sad.

Melanie was the instructor this morning and she is AMAZING! She actually came up and introduced herself to me. And I thought that was pretty cool. She gave me some pointers. Of course, I told her about my half training, and she said Pump is a good class to go hand and hand with the running. I made it through the class and she came up to me afterwards to see how I did and if I had any questions. And told me I did a good job. HOLLA!
Naturally I bragged on myself, and showed her a before and during/after. Of course...she was blown away. ;) And I told her I would like to lose about another 5-10 pounds and she's like lets do this. I'll be more than happy to help. And if there is anything you need from me, please let me know.
I was so stoked! I'm finally going to stop dicking around and to the covented 200 plus poundage gone with Melanie's help! She's sooooo sweet! I really REALLY like her. She and Gina have been my favorite instructors!

So another day in the books! Rest day tomorrow. Thank GOODNESS! LOL!

Foods for 12/17/13

As usual my morning cup o' joe.

Syntrax Mint Cookie protein milkshake
Fat Free Milk

Because I had BodyPump at 5:45 in the AM...needed a quick punch of protein and really didn't feel like cooking anything.

Tri-Bean Soup with ham
Greek strawberry yogurt

1/2 Taco Bell steak quesadilla 
1/2 Bean and cheese burrito

Brent had to go back out for work so dinner was drive through. And I'm actually alright with it. It happens. :)

haystacks those delish yummyness! Lol

Monday, December 16, 2013

Half Marathon Training Recap 12/16/13

There was a 3.5 miler on today's schedule. A stupidly cold one at that.

As I mentioned I was going to repeat week 2 but I got out there and changed my mind! I felt good, my knee felt good...let's stay on track with training!

I was scheduled for 3.5 miles but I ended up doing 3.9 miles. The .4 was part of my cool down. Went home and stretched and put another run in the books. 

This one took about 57 mins...which is my 4 mile average. Sounds like I'm back on track from my No Run, November...due to my knee injury and me getting in my head. Read all about it on this Blog. But it feels great being back to where I was and following a training schedule. 

And as always, here is my running montage! :)

One of the reasons I run is because I'm preparing for the Zombie Apocalypse. You laugh but the way shit is going we'll have one. And I'll be prepared. I just need to work on my archery and katana skills! ;)


Foods for 12/16/13

The day started off with my usual cup of coffee. Because when I first get up Frankentummy doesn't like to eat right away. I guess he needs to wake up first, and since he's part of me...he's a grouch when he first wakes up. Kind of fitting...since I'm the same way! ;)

Leftover Breakfast Quesadilla
Egg, Cheese, Bacon, Sausage, and Sour Cream

Ha! I forgot to take a picture before I started to eat it! Lol

Egg Salad

Velveeta skillet meal

Homemade haystacks 
2 pieces of a World market wild berry chocolate bar...which was stupidly good!
1 cup of fat free milk with sugar free chocolate syrup
'Tis the season for holiday goodies. And it's the first year I can enjoy them. And I'll try to be on my best behavior! Lol

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Foods for 12/15/13

Well as always everyday starts off with the best intentions but I seem to hit a couple glitches. Mainly my lack planning...okay all it's my lack of planning. That is one of my goals for the new year...which I will write a blog about that in the next couple of weeks to close out 2013. But overall it was a usual good start and complete derail during the day and kind of rebounds some where. So here goes. As always tomorrow is another day.
I've noticed that Sundays and Wednesdays...days I help Brent work. So the days are early and I don't get up early enough to plan anything. That means I have to prepare the day/night before...maybe...LOL!

Snytrax Cookies 'n Cream Protein Milkshake
Fat free milk

Starbucks Pumpkin Scone

Starbucks Caramel Brulee Frappuccino

Breakfast Scramble Quesadilla

Until tomorrow! Remember no Half Marathon Training  post today!

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Foods for 12/14/13

Today I'm on the road. Grant it, it's not a long drive but I always seem to fall off the deep end when I do a road trip. I don't prepare well. Today was no different! I went in with the best intentions but managed not to follow through. Honestly being on the road throws me off. I have to get better with that! I cannot let road trips derail me.

I did have a healthy breakfast. So 1 out of 3 meals isn't THAT bad...right?! ;)

Leftover breakfast scramble
Yoplait Light Vanilla

Cookie Ice Cream Sandwich 
WTF...seriously Lydia!? Do better!

Half a chili cheeseburger 
No wonder I feel like crap!

Ooooh Lawd!

Grilled cheese sandwich
A couple bites of a snicker blast

Ooooh Frankentummy is not happy! He's going to back me pay! And honestly I deserve it. But today was kind of a last day of "bad" foods. Tomorrow is a new week, a new day, and a new attitude! Time to get to 200 lbs gone!

Half Marathon Training Recap 12/13/13

Oooooh it's Friday the 13th!

Today training consisted of a cross training class for the half marathon training. So I opted for 2 gym classes...BodyFlow and Zumba.

I wasn't feeling Zumba today. I haven't been to Zumba or the gym in several months. So I was excited to get back to it but I didn't like this instructor or the ladies in the class. It was more of a social hour and the instructor wasn't that good. Oh well! Think I'll just stick with BodyFlow and BodyCombat on Fridays!

I was going to pick up my Run or Dye race packet today. But I didn't know I needed a waiver. Which is a good thing I didn't have because I'm not going to do be able to run it. Because I'm traveling to Columbia to see my Grandma. My Mom, Aunt, and Uncles had to make the difficult decision and put Grandma in hospice, after she fell last week. She's been battling Dementia, which is a bitch of a disease. And it's just gotten to the point that hospice needed to come into play. So if you could please prayer or send positive thoughts and vibes to my Grandma and my Mom, Aunt, and Uncles during this time. Along with the rest of the family. Thank you! My goal now is to find a run that proceeds go to helping find a cure for Dementia and Alzheimer's. And when I find one I'll run it in honor of my grandma, my grandma-in-law and my aunt's mom.

Well on that depressing note...have a fabulous day! :)

Half Marathon Training Recap 12/14/13

Today was suppose to be my long run but since I'll be in Columbia, seeing my Grandma.
That's clearly not going to happen.

So today is my rest day.

And I'll hit my training tomorrow with full force.
I have a long stretch day on the books for tomorrow because it's the beginning of my training week. I'm suppose to move to Week 3 but I don't feel comfortable moving ahead. So I'm going to do week 2 again.

For those that are running today...HAPPY RUNNING! And good luck in your races!

Friday, December 13, 2013

Foods for 12/13/13

My morning was a 2 cup kind of day.

Cup of Tuna Salad (tuna, relish, and duke's light mayo)
A splash of olive oil, lemon juice, and spices.

Lunch was a complete bust! I forgot my healthy snacks for after my gym classes and then I had some running around to do. So I wasn't going to home for lunch and of course I forgot my healthy snack. And in a moment of weakness I went Whole Foods. Good idea at the time because I had a game plan. Yogurt and berries was what I went in for...sadly I didn't leave with that! I was doing good until I walked by bakery...everything went down hill! I ended up putting the yogurt back and bought cookies! Gastric bypass fail!  

Breakfast for Dinner

Overall not a bad day and I have found out tracking my food like makes me more aware of my food choices! Grant it a couple of the choices have not been the greatest but I'm being honest. This isn't an easy process and I don't claim to be perfect. But it's my process and I'm forever learning what to eat and not eat. So it's a challenge everyday but well worth it! 

That's today's foods.


Thursday, December 12, 2013

Half Marathon Training Recap 12/12/13

I just realized that today is 15 months since surgery! Holy crap! Where does the time go?! What a wild and crazy ride! And the best decision EVER...hands down!


Picture from someEcards.

I was scheduled to do 3 miles and 3.2 miles is what I did. It took me 45:46 minutes.

That shit was cold! I don't know how people up North do it. I barely survived with it being "only" 38 degrees...that's in Fahrenheit.

After what seemed like HOURS, I was finally ready to hit the pavement. Two jackets, two shirts, one vest, pants, two sets of socks and my fabulous shoes later. I put my heart rate monitor and filled up my I was FINALLY ready to go! I stepped outside and instantly thought "WHAT THE TOM FULLERY IS THIS MADNESS!!??"

I'm not a cold runner! I rather have heat and I can't believe I'm saying that.

I'm fine with my time. I'm not terribly focused on that right now. I'm just more focused on my distance and not injuring myself. I know the speed with come in time. Overall I'm pleased with this run. I did have to walk about half a mile after I got this sharp pain in my side. I just walked it out and took deep breaths. Trying to breathe with that damn cold madness is horrible. Probably why I got that pain in my side...I wasn't breathing enough. But once the pain subsided, I was back to running and finished strong.

So that's today's recap! On tomorrow's agenda is a 30 minute walk and a gym class. I'm thinking either Zumba or BodyCombat. I'll probably do Zumba...I feel like shaking my money maker!


Foods for 12/12/13

1.5 Eggs
Feta Cheese

93/7 Ground Beef
2% Shredded cheese
Reduced fat sour cream

Stuffed crust pepperoni pizza
I was a bad bariatric patient...I didn't feel like cooking! Lol lazy! But overall not a horrible day!!

Italian Ice

Coming Clean

I'm coming cleaning with EVERYTHING!

I'm owning up to my lack of training, my poor eating and everything else.

I'm washing my hands clean of my slackness and getting back to doing what I do...KICKING ASS!!!

I know I say this time and time again but I realized my Half Marathon is only 3 months away and the most I've ran has been 8 miles, which I injured myself doing. So I need to buckle down and get serious about this shit! Time to follow and stick to my training schedule. Which means if I have to write a blog about my runs/cross training to keep myself honest and on track. Then by golly I'll do it!

Oh darn! You lucky people you!

On today's schedule is a 2 miler. So once I get done with that I'll be back here with the stats and how I felt and all the crap.

Then I'm going to be posting my meals and foods because I want to lose these 7 pounds before the end of the year.



Picture is from

Also we've been watching "Mike and Molly". Which I absolutely LOVE!!! I have a girl crush on Melissa McCarthy. Just saying!

But Molly quit her job, as a teacher, and wants to become a writer. And I really want this blog and my experience with the surgery to make me money.

So I want to be a writer.

There I said it.

I've always thought I was pretty good at it, and my mom thinks I'm funny. So if MY mom thinks I'm funny then it must me true! ;) But in all seriousness, I've gotten A LOT of positive comments and feedback from my blog and I really want to turn it into something.
So that is my new adventure. Along with looking at schools in the spring to get a degree...FINALLY!!! There is a lot going on but I wouldn't have it any other way! HOLLA!!!


P.S - I'll be back in a couple hours to write about my run! :)

Weight Update

When did December get here?
I seriously can't believe it.
And I thought I have blogged in December but looking back...I have not! LOL!
So here is my first blog for December! :)

I'm sure y'all are wondering about things on the weight loss front. Well not much is going on there. I'm pretty much maintaining my weight around the 184-186. I'm completely okay with that. I would like to see 7 more pounds gone to make the total 200 pounds gone. I want that by the end of the year. So that just means I have to buckle down and follow the my plan. Which I clearly know how to do but I'm just enjoying all the work I've done so far. I'm really finally living and I'm looking at everything completely different.

Small petty things that I use to worry about before I'm say "fuck it now". If it doesn't bring positive energy and happiness to me or my world...then I don't want/need it in my life. I've cut ties with my "old" life because those habits, I created, weren't good or healthy for me. So I feel as if I almost am rebooting myself. And honestly I'm really okay with that...I've created a niche of people who have gotten the surgeries or doing some form of weight loss or who have the running/walking/exercising bug. That's something I never thought I would be a part of...sort of wanted to but never thought or knew how to get there. And honestly I was so worried about what people thought of a 377 pound woman running or what she was doing in that gym class. But I learned that no one cares what I do and to just get out there and do it. Life really opens up and begins when you realize that.

And the surgery, my new found confidence, and the fact I'm older...I just don't give a rip! So kudos to me! Grant it there are times when that negative self talk, doubt, people pleaser comes back...but I've learned to keep all that at bay and use those skills in another way. Or get them out in another exercising.

Which brings me to something I'm been slacking on. Yes the Goddess/Queen of exercising...isn't exercising. Yes I called myself out and I need y'alls help to keep me honest. If you're following my Facebook page, and if not you should's pretty awesome! But if you are and you haven't noticed any running or exercising me out on it. I might be pissed but I'll realize I've been a slack ass and go do something! :)

Sooooo that's all I have to stay about that.

Thanks for continuing to read this insanity that is my life!! Xoxo