Today is 9/12/13.
This time last year, I was on the operating room table for 5 hours because of my ridiculously fatty liver. And now I'm going to be going out for a run...maybe a 4 mile run this morning. Who knows!
One year ago I had Gastric Bypass surgery and from there my life changed forever.
It's hard to believe it's only been a year. And what a year it has been! A year I will never forget. A year that improved my life without a doubt. A year of nothing but growing. A year of smashing goals. A year that I'm so thankful for.
I remember this time I was a bundle of nerves, will not really because I this point I had the feel good drugs in my system. But the moments leading up to that point I was a basket case. Little did I know what was in store for me. Little did I know how this decision would change everything that I knew about myself, food, and life. But boy am I so thankfully I took the plunge and decided to leap.
Because I year later, I am 181.8 pounds lighter. I'm stronger both mentally and physically. I can cross my legs. I'm not plus size. I can run. I can workout for 2 hours, 5 times a week. I weigh less than Brent. I can shave my legs with no problem. My relationshit with food is getting better, I still fight but it's worth it. My blood pressure is off the chain...112/76! Thank you very much! My regular doctor calls me healthy! I'm all around a much happier person. I have energy for days. And best of all, my favorite one, is I truly love myself and who I've become. Along with that I have accepted/loved who I once was.
I was lucky that I didn't have any issues with the actual surgery but my battle has been a mental one, which at times, is a stupid pain in the ass. But it's one I'm going to continue to fight for because I'm worth it. I've built this new life for myself and I refuse to let anyone...myself included take it away. I am stronger than I ever thought I could be. I still fight the good fight with food. This week is a prime example. I struggled with not getting to my 1 year surgery goal, of losing 188 lbs. So I ate in attempt to make myself feel better. Which we all know...that doesn't work. I also realized lately, I've been eating at boredom from being at home and not working. So I'm going to be focusing on nipping that shit in the bud. Because I've worked to hard to go back to 377 lbs. Screw that shit! And this week was dashed with PMS. The joys of having my ovaries working right! :)
I don't want this post to be a negative one. This is a celebration post. Because I deserve it. And the best part is I still have 6 month left in the "honeymoon" phase. So I can still lose for the next 6 months. I'm taking it back to basics. I'm finishing what I started a year ago. I'm getting to my goal weight, whatever that may be. I'm going to continue my healthy, new, fabulous, and fun life!
I'm soooo excited to see what this next year has in store for me.
And of course all this wouldn't be possible without my incredible, strong, amazing, and wonderful support system. Losing weight by itself is hard but when you have an amazing support system in place...it makes those hard days seem manageable! So I just want to give them a shout out!
Thank yous -
Brent: Thank you baby for being so supportive of this crazy idea from day one! Thank for going on a limb and tasting some of the random healthy crap I cook. Thank you for encouraging and picking me up when I feel like this process isn't working. Thank you for giving me the opportunity not to work and to focus my time and energy into this process. Thank you for just being there! I love you so much!
Mom and Dad: Thank you so much for understanding and supporting this process. I know it had to be scary to see your little girl go under the knife. And I think y'all for being there and cheering me on. It means the world. And mom thanks for being there for my first dumping! But peanut butter stays in Frankentummy just fine now! :) Thank you for catering to me food needs when I come over! I love y'all!
Charles and Ellen: Thank you guys so rooting and cheering me on this whole time also! It means a lot that y'all on my side! And thank y'all for catering to my food needs also! :) Thank you for asking about my progress! Y'all are the greatest set of in-laws a girl could ask for! I love y'all!
Andy: Thank you for making me be a better runner! I push myself harder because I want to beat you! :) I love you and I'm so proud of you for your work!! And thanks for your support!!
Lindsay and Stephen: *Of course Alex and Maddie* Thank you guys for being on my side and rooting for me. It really means a lot and I cherish it!
Dr. Pullat and his team, Nina and Debbie: Thank y'all for working your magic and encouraging me to do better! I really am so thankfully to have such a great team behind me!
Desha, Lori, Amanda, Mary, Rachel, Charity, Nicole, Lori, D and D, Helean, Shanita, Shanita, Ana, Anna, Coral, and all my other WLS friends on Instragram, Facebook, and MyFitnessPal: Thanks y'all for "getting it". Losing weight is hard but having people who actually know what's you went through makes this process that much sweeter. And y'all progress makes me work all that much harder because y'all encourage me more than y'all know!! :) I heart y'all!!
And lastly thank you to all my family and friends who "like", comment, ask, encourage, read, and cheer me on! Y'all seriously have made this transition that much easier. It really has been a life changer and to know that I have people who cheer and will kick my ass when I need it!! Y'all have all been a blessing and I'm truly truly thankfully for all the positivity y'all have sent my way!
So it's been a year...let's see where this next year goes!! Xoxo