Sunday, July 29, 2012

Looking Forward To...

Before I move on to the subject of this blog...if you haven't read the latest one. For shame! But here is the link. Read "No Witty Title" before reading this one. :) K...thanks! :)

"No Witty Title"

So DON'T READ THIS PART! ;)

As mentioned in the previous blog, I've been APPROVED. The idea is settling in and I'm getting sooo super excited. AAAHHH!! Yay! So these are the last six weeks of me being deadly obese. I understand I'm going to be "obese" for a good while...but not deathly obese. So touche! :)

Then I got to thinking about all the blog possibilities that are going to be going on. Weight loss update blogs, pain blogs, what did I get myself into blogs, and OMG can I really eat JUST that and be full blogs.

And this one might be my favorite blog...I got the idea from my RNY Talk Forum. Someone posted a topic of "What are you looking forward to after the surgery?" And everyone had such awesome things they wanted to do from skydiving...not my cup of tea to just being to shop in a "normal" clothing store. I got the bright idea to blog about mine "Looking forward tos"

I'm Looking Forward To...
EVERYTHING!!
I'm looking forward to being under 200 lbs.
I'm looking forward to kicking ass.
I'm looking forward to FINALLY get into my career. I want to be a Zumba and spinning instrutor.
I'm looking forward to going to Disney and being able to ride the rides. Instead of being worried if I would fit.
I'm looking forward to getting my style back. Instead of wearing my infamous gross basketball shorts.
I'm looking forward to not sweating like a damn pig! I sweat soooooo much and I'm jsut standing there. I understand its hot but my sweating is INSANE!
I'm looking forward to spawning the cutest kids this world has seen. :)
I'm looking forward to running and spinning without feeling like I'm going to die or my knee is going to burst!
I'm looking forward to my Buddha belly not getting in the way of me tying my shoes.
I'm look forward to my 30th birthday party next year! :) You best believe I will be sporting one slinky, sexy, and bangable dress. Just saying! :)
I'm looking forward to actually not really having food be the center of my universe. I know it will always before there. I know the surgery/beginning of eating again will be rough but I will actually know when to stop. Hence my issue now.
I'm looking forward to being active again.
I'm looking forward to adding years to my life.
I'm looking forward to dancing again.
I'm looking forward to wearing heels.
I'm looking forward to wearing a bathing suit more comfortibly.
I'm looking forward to passing good healthy habits to our spawns.
I'm looking forward to not getting winded when I go up stairs or just walking from my car to the store.
I'm looking forward to getting back to feeling comfortable in my skin. Instead of wondering how I get here and this isn't my body.
I'm looking forward to wearing my wedding rings again.
I'm looking forward to being super duper happy and proud of myself.
I'm looking forward to not feeling like I'm getting stared at because of my weight.
I'm looking forward to kids not asking their parents if I have a baby in my stomach. True story.
I'm looking forward to sleeping much better and maybe not snoring! *Fingers crossed on that one*
I'm looking forward to wearing clothes from the website. Super Cute Clothes!

So that's just what I can think of right now. I'm sure this list will continue to grow. But don't get this list twisted with the journey I'm about to undertake. I know it will be hard, I know it's surgery, I know these things but for the outcome will be well worth it.

Until next time! :)

Thursday, July 26, 2012

No Witty Title

Well let me first start off by saying congrats to my sister and brother in law on the birth of the cutest niece E-V-E-R!!!! Maddie was born 7/26/2012 at 4:47 am. She's my Maddie waddie!!

No drama about my weight loss surgery journey. No witty...in my opinion witty...post about hating insurance companies...or at least mine. No more eating everything...including the kitchen sink. No more old HORRIBLE eating habits that has crept back into my daily life.

So let me recap the latest installment of this journey.

As y'all know I was denied by my "insurance company"...CIGNA.
But again I'm over it and trying to move on from being rejected and the bruised ego.
I promised no wittiness...sorry.

On Monday I was voluntold by my boss to go to an insurance Q&A.
Thanks Johnny...let's add salt to the wound...

So me and my buddy trekked over to another store to talk about insurance, on a truck day none the less. That's a different rant altogether. We got over to the other HT and I'm there with some of my floral buddies and other HT employees. And in walks Terri, who is HT's benefits lady. She is the go to between HT and Cigna. She sooooooooooooo nice. I think she is wonderful...very helpful...and very informative.

She went on with the Q&A and I went on...in my head...bitching about being there and about being denied for whatever stupid reason. Grumble grumble grumble. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm at an insurance Q&A...why not ask about my denial letter. Man I tell you I'm a GENIUS. But I didn't want other people knowing my business...but I write a blog...not the most sound logic but whatever. Before the meeting was over this lady, that works at another store, started talking about how she got the gastric bypass surgery and dealing with her insurance company at the time. I was like wow seriously...if I wasn't meant to be here. Go figure.

Once the meeting got over with I went up to Terri and told her my sob story...not really...I just gave her straight facts and asked if there was something she could do. She took my info and said she would call me back. So I was like cool, and went back to work.

Didn't think she would actually call me but she did. Unfortunately I didn't pick up because the number she was calling from was "unknown" and I didn't know if it was going to be a creeper on the other line. So she left a message and we began our game of phone tag.

Still haven't heard anything as of today.

But I did get another phone call today.

Wait for it...

Wait for it...

And it was MUSC calling me back. I was like yay! Hopefully they have an answer from Cigna about my denial.

Susan said "Lydia, I was just calling to let you know that you've been APPROVED by Blue Cross Blue Shield!!!!" I started crying. Really, Lydia...crying? But I told her thank you thank you thank you!!!! She has made my day! Not only was my cutest niece born today, I got approved. And Susan said I love making these phone calls.

Susan said "Well I won't keep you long since you have to get back to your niece. So we are going to just set up your surgery date and your pre surgery exam." I was like heck yeah! The moment I've been waiting for!! :)

So I have surgery set for September 12, 2012. *Happy dance!!!!*

Then the fun will REALLY begin. Not to say this approval part hasn't been fun! :)

I'm sure those blogs will be insane. I'm ready though. I'm ready to get back and really focus on what I want to get from my life. A good loooooooooong healthy life...with a wonderful hubby and eventually kids.

Until next time.

Oooooh man I've only got like 6 weeks!!! YAY!!!!!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Whiskey...Tango...Foxtrot...

So it's taken a couple days to write this blog mainly because I didn't want to write it. And also work has been slightly busier for me. I'm being trained for a new spot in the store...I'm hoping this will be a good change for me. I'll still be doing floral, but I'll be in this spot one day a week...until I can find a permanent spot for me at that store or another.

On to the meat of the blog...

I went to work on Tuesday to train for my new spot and as I was leaving I got a call from the hospital...

YAY!!!! I thought. Finally they'll tell me I got myself a date with the surgeon and everything is going fabulously according to my plan!

Susan, at the hospital, told me I would be getting a letter saying I was DENIED!!!!!!!!!!!!! *falls out of my chair*

Yes...my "wonderful" insurance company doesn't see how 370 lbs is worthy of having surgery. Seriously?

But Susan said don't worry. This happens all the time with your insurance company. Apparently my insurance in the bane of every one's existence. And I can see why.

So she wanted to ask me some quick questions for the appeal. Yes...MUSC is appealing. Yes...good news. Susan asked about my 6 month diet last year with my doctor. She asked if I went in March because in the doctor's notes show me going in February and then April to August. That's 6 months but they catch is they have to be 6 months together...consecutively. There's the catch!

She also asked about Brent's insurance...so the hospital is going to try there also.

BUT DAMN IT! I thought I was a shoe in. I thought I did EVERYTHING they wanted. But alas the other shoe dropped.

Best case scenario, it comes back approved. YAY!!! Surgery is still on!! Whoop whoop!
Worst care scenario, I wait 6 months, do the diet each month back to back, and then have surgery early 2013.

Either way the surgery is going to happen. But damn it!!!

So after I cried to Brent, saying I'm never going to have this happen. This is not going according to my plans. I did this with the whole ugly cry and everything! I was a hot mess!

He told me to skip bells for the night and go to the support group, because I can start going before the surgery. So I went...sort of reluctantly. I walked in there, looked at everyone and instantly became the green eyed monster. All these people have had their surgeries and why can't my stupid mother effin insurance work right. Why do I have to have the retarded insurance company? What is it about me and my stupid backwards dumb effin insurance company, that doesn't see 370 lbs on a 5'4 frame is a health risk?! UMMMM HELLO!?!?! Let's add my high blood pressure. Yeah! Well it was alittle high because I was super nervous at the hospital!

Then Linda walked in and all was right in my world. I was in the right place and the right time. She came in saw my "new" face and came over and just started talking to me. I was sitting and sulking on the back row. This woman has lost 126 pounds and had energy, personality, and I love her! She showed me her before and after pictures. And I got all teary eyed and told her my story and she was like honey it's alright MUSC saved my life and they're fighting for you.

And this other lady...I'll get her name next time...was one row in front of me and she has a weight loss of 210 pounds!!! WHAT! I was floored! She looked amazing! She said MUSC is here for you and they're going to get you approval. They're such wonderful people here, she said.

So yeah I'm sooooo glad I went to the support group, and I can't wait until I go back!

That's the latest on the surgery front and Susan said I should hear something in a shorter time than 4 weeks, with cigna's answer to the appeal. So keep praying and good vibes that this works this time and if not than...I guess my ass is going to make some heads roll! :)

Signing out! Lydia


Friday, July 13, 2012

Get to Know Lydia

Yes...Hi...I'm Lydia and I'm still alive. :) I know I haven't blogged much but I kind of feel like I'm at place where I have nothing to blog about. So I figured I would do a "Get to Know Lydia" blog until I hear something about my surgery.

Real quick on that front...I'm still pending. But I did however send in Brent's insurance today because that headache finally got straighten out. I must say I love Sara Lee/Bimbo Bakery...they have been way awesome and super helpful during "Insurance Gate 2012".

I asked Lisa, at the hospital, on what's the deal with not hearing anything. And she pretty much said my insurance is the one of the slowest if not the slowest on getting back to the hospital. So my first thought was great I have dumbasses for an insurance company but than I took it back quickly because I don't want to jinx myself and send bad juju. Come on it's Friday the 13th...bad juju is out there. But I do have a sense of calm after that talk. I do honestly have nothing bad to say about the people I've met on the new journey. They rock my face off.

I feel an answer is coming soon...I just need to stay positive and not get so damn impatient! OOOOH why isn't that a virtue of mine! Damn Marshall/Monroe genes! :) Curses. Anyways so please keep sending good vibes and prayers. I feel them and I know Cigna does also! :)

Now on to the "Get to Know Lydia" phase of this blog.

I know most of y'all reading this are family and friends...so you can skip ahead or exit now. :)
But for those who I've met on Twitter and RNYtalk, I figured I'd let y'all into my world.

:)

I'm Lydia and I'm probably the biggest dork/nerd you'll ever meet. I'm random at times...most times. I'm super loud and very gregarious. I've been told my laugh is loud and infectious.

Maybe I'll post a video blog with me just laughing and y'all can hear it! BAAAHAHAHAHA!

I'm bubbly, I'm a huge goofball with a wicked sense of humor. I'll laugh at fart jokes or witty sarcastic jokes. I got one for you!

Q - "What does a nosy pepper do?"
A - "Gets Jalapeno Business" 

BAAHHAHAHAHAHA You know you're dying laughing or shaking your head!

I love to dance and can't wait for these pounds to start coming off and freeing me from my cage of fat. I'm a bit on the dramatic side but I totally make up for it with HUMOR!

I love to laugh and make other people laugh at their expense and sometimes mine.

I'm in love with the best guy EVER. So far my favorite roles I'm planning in life right now; are wife and BEST AUNT EVER! I love my wittle Alex and soon to be wittle Maddie.

But Wife is a lovely fit on me...I think. Brent is the best and he totally puts up with my wild and crazy antics...as I do his. Let's just say there is never a dull moment...EVER. I love you baby times 3!

And when I write in caps that's how I would say it in real life. I'm super animated.

I love fair food. Funnel cakes are the bomb dot com along with cheeseburgers and fries.

I love music. Right now I'm reliving my teen years with 90s R&B. But I range anywhere from the 50s to Now and everything genre in between.

I really am that awesome. I want kids one because I know I would be one bad ass mom! I would raise my spawn like I was raised. You better be home before street lights come on or you will get beat. Good ole southern old school raising! :)

I'm obsessed with PINK, Vera Bradley, and Hello Kitty. I'm in love with my iPhone. I'm the best mama to my furbabies...I love my Sally Wally and Reesy Peesy!

I'm a florist and just got employee of the 3rd quarter! Again shows my awesomeness!

I'm going to be a writer and my grammar SUCKS! :) But I chalk it up to my charm and personality! :)

I'm so loving the website www.modcloth.com
That's where I'll be shopping once at goal weight...just like my cool twitter friends! <3

I have the best family and in-laws a girl could ask for! I heard horror stories about crazy in-laws or if my family would be crazy in-laws to Brent. But both families are absolutely amazing and I'm one lucky gal!

My friends are super amazing and wonderful and I love and cherish them dearly.

I love shoes also. More walking/running shoes. But I just saw a pair of teal and white heels with a peacock feather painted on a pair of pumps on www.modcloth.com
MUST GET!!!

So that's me in a nut shell. Just your above average gal in an average world.

Until next time! :)