Friday, May 6, 2016

Divas 2016 Half Marathon

hello all 2 of my faithful readers.
I know, I's been a while!
How the heck are you?
Me? I'm doing good. thanks for asking! :)

So here is a quick update.
2016 has started off a little shaky. My mom ended up in the hospital for about a month, thankfully she was released almost 2 months ago. She is doing mucho mucho better. So seeing how I was traveling to and from to see her, my running and eating wasn't my main focus. She was.
So once she got better. A full time position became available and I applied for it and got it. Woot woot!! Being full time, again, has taking some time to get use to. Naturally, training and my eating weren't my main focus.
But I was determined to do a half this year. I had already paid for this year's Divas 2016 Half Marathon, up in North Myrtle Beach. So I tried to find a new normal with being full time, taking care of the Brent, maintaining a household, and seeing and checking on my mom. Training really didn't all. But I was determined to complete my fourth half marathon, unconditioned or not.

Well May 1, 2016 came, the day of my fourth half. Yes! I knew I was going to end up walking most, if not all of it.
Of course, my prediction came to pass. I walked 99% of it. This race was, by far the worst in my running career. Not because the race itself but because of me.

I was totally unconditioned, out of shape, and not fueling my body properly. I *thought* I could come out of this race not in too bad of shape. Well, unfortunately, my body had other ideas. I feet took my brunt of the beating. I ended up with 8 BAD blisters, one toenail-less toe, 2 more toenails I'm going to lose, and one terribly bruised ego. My time was HORRIBLE, of course! I finished 13.1 miles in 3 hours and 51 minutes. The worst is I'm still paying for it on Friday, May 6, 2016.

Most people would say, "hey at least you finished it." True. But I am better than the performance I gave that day. I am better than the way I have been treating my body. I am better than this. Yes I finished but I want more than to *just* finish. I was to be better than I was my last race, my last miles, my last meal. Not because I *have* to but because I know I can. I want to. I want to push myself to the limits. I want to strive for a faster running time. I want to be better than I was before. Because surgery has given me this amazing opportunity and I DO NOT want to throw it away.

Sure somedays are better than others but overall I know I can do better and I WILL do better. Not because I *have* but because I *want* to and I'm worth it.

Lesson this half marathon has taught me: crappy training = crappy performance. And showed me why I did surgery and took up running. Because I *want* to.

So with this race over, I can focus my time, training, and energy into the Kiawah MARATHON.
Yes, M-A-R-A-T-H-O-N.
A whole 26.2 miles.
It's not until December, I have an awesome training program. This time around I'm going to add in muscle building and strength, to see if that helps with training and recovery.

I leave you with awesome pictures of this years Divas 2016 Half Marathon. FYI: I will beat my time next year for this race! Challenge accepted!


Monday, December 21, 2015

Goals for 2016


Yup and I'm one of them!!

First of all 3 blogs in one morning, HA! Give a girl a new laptop and she is all sorts of blog crazy!

Since 2016 is coming up pretty quickly thought I should put my goals out there.

2016 GOALS!

1. Get back to healthy.
2. Run 500 miles.
3. Read more.
4. Save more.
5. Blog more.

Until next time!

2015 Year End Review!

Wow! Can't believe there are only days left in this year. It's head to believe another year has come and gone.

This year was a rather challenging one, mentally.
From Grandma passing in January to a failed direct sales business to going back to a "real" job to some weight gain. It sure has been a trippy year. Nothing compared to 2005, but nonetheless this yaer had it's struggles. But I overcame and will overcome them.

Dealing with grandma's passing and training for two half marathons, was extremely tough. I didn't perform like I wanted and naturally I was hard on myself. But everyone put it into prospective, I've completed 3 half marathons...I could NEVER do that before. Sure the time wasn't the best but you finished and sometimes that's enough. So I learned to deal with this letdowns.

The Jamberry business, yeah I should've known that wasn't going to be a good one. After many other attempts and those types of businesses. I just doing have the mindset for those and I'm okay with that. Not everyone has those salesmen skills, just like everyone doesn't have the awesome I have. :)

A fairly big obstacle to overcome this year was going back a getting a "real" job. Yes working a different schedule from Brent has been rather challenging, see how we've working together for most of out relationship. But it was time for me to go back. We want to save for a house, pay somethings off, and get some decent insurance. The big reason was for insurance. Yeah it's been an interesting transition but we're adjusting and really enjoying our marriage and relationship even more...not sure how that is even possible but we are.

Not sure if Grandma passing was the toughest thing or dealing with my 40 pounds weight gain...
Yup forty pounds. 4-0 pounds. That is really tough to type out. I think for most of the year I was in denial about how much it really was but to type it out and really think about it and face. Really really really REALLY makes it real. I'm realizing that the further out from surgery I get, the harder things really become. I thought the surgery and the retraining my mind was tough. HA! Boy was I extremely naïve.
Case and point, my vitamins. I was a stickler for taking my vitamins for the longest time. Then, as of recently, I was like whatever. And it has become very irregular when I take them. Today, 12/21/15, has been the first day I've taken all my morning vitamins. I'm working on fixing that because well I need those since Frankentummy is a special tummy now.
And those healthy habits I worked hard to learn are slowly fading into the background and the old unhealthy habits have gradually snuck in. True story, sometimes I have cookieS for lunch. Yes...with an "S" and for a meal. Frankentummy is still small and can only hold so much. BUT there are somethings I eat that just breakdown into nothing, chips, ice cream...etc, and I can eat more of those. But if I eat a nice tuna salad with a beautiful bed of greens, olives, cheese, and an egg. I am filled after several bites. And that's how it should be.
The reason I am telling you all this is because I want people to realize weight loss surgery is NOT the easy way out. The further you get out the harder it is to resist the yummy things, like holiday treats or alcohol. You get back to life and out of that little weight loss surgery bubble you're in. Things happen, life happens, death happens, new job happens. So you have to adapt to all these things because all these things don't care if you had surgery or not. But as I ALWAYS say and say until the day I die, having the surgery was one of the best decisions I have EVER made. I've accomplished things I NEVER thought I could do. Became an even more amazing human. I wouldn't change anything about this adventure.

But before you start feeling all sorry for me, please don't, 2015 had some incredible moments. Brent and I celebrated 4 amazing years of this awesome thing called marriage!!! Woot #teamjohnston
I bought my first brand spanking new car. She is a beauty!! She is a white 2015 Toyota Camry. She is amazing and I named her Betty White. :) I went back into the work force, yeah it stinks but it's been a good thing. I'm still trying to get use to "normal" people hours! lol

Sure this year has been rocky at points, it's still been an incredible year. But let's hope 2016 won't be a repeat! ;)

So on that note I leave you and until next time! :)

And the worst blogging award goes to...

Just checked to see the last time I blogging! It was back in May.

And the winner for the worst blogger goes to Lydia Johnston!! Woot woot!! Yes!!
Thank you! I like to thank all the little people who stuck by me and my lack of blogging. And to those who haven't, I don't blame you! lol

So we're in December already. When did that happen? Where did the summer and fall go? Oh what! It's still summer here in the South...

Last update was about running and finishing races. YAY!
This update isn't.
It's about mental health crap.
I realized a few weeks ago, that I've gone rouge.
I've gone rouge with my eating, my running, and support.
I attempted other diets. If It Fits Your Marcos and Paleo type things. But nothing would stick or it would but only for a short time. Then it dawned on me, after listening to a podcast, about what the issue is. And I quote, "Building a perfect plate doesn't equal health everyday. Certainly a foundation. You can be a miserable person, eating healthy food, and still be really unhealthy." Balanced Bites Podcast
Why? Because of mental health! The brain is a scary place and likes to play tricks on you.
It doesn't matter what type of healthy foods I eat, if my brain isn't on board then it's pointless. I'm my own worst enemy. The food isn't jumping in my mouth. I don't rock a robo-arm stuffing my face. My face is doing the game, "it's just one bite." well that one bite sends me down a rabbit hole. or my brain goes "you'll start tomorrow, so indulge." well interesting enough tomorrow never comes...

So that's where I'm at in my "healthy" lifestyle.
Or my brain will do "you can run it off tomorrow." Again tomorrow never comes...
Sooo just FYI! Tomorrow never comes...

I started the month at 226!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How was it a year ago I was bitching about being 190something, and now I would KILL to be back there?

Well I went a took action because we all know I'm a piss or get off the pot kind of gal. I called Nina/Amanda and pretty much was like I need help. I've gone off the deep end. I've gone rouge. I'm out of control.
We set up an appointment. I went a saw them. Pretty much my battle is mental health. Amanda was like you know what to do but your mind needs to be back on board. It happens more often then you know. But overall you've still lost 150something pounds. You haven't failed at anything. So we're going to set you up with the behavioral medicine team and get your mind back in line. I was like okay, thank you! Drying up my tears and with a new mindset.

Well that new mindset went out the door as soon as I walked out the day of the hospital. Not enitrely sure why.
But alas I live to fight the goof fight. One I set myself on 3 years ago. One I will never give up. One I will get fighting. One I'm bound and determined to continue on.

Until next time!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Mic Check *tap tap tap*

Hey remember when I use to blog a lot more than I have been. 
Yeah, those were the good ol' days! :)

Truth be told, I'm not sure why I haven't been a blogging machine. Maybe it's because I haven't done anything blog worthy. Other than maintenance. I'm going to be the first to say, maintenance is a bitch and boring as hell. As Debbie said, I still have to do all the work but I don't see the results like in the beginning. Boo!!
Maybe it's because I just don't feel like blogging. Maybe it's because oh! who knows! The point is I'm here right now blogging. Yay!! Small victories!!

So what's been going on?
I did the Cooper River Bridge Run and another Half Marathon since the last time I wrote something. The CRBR was a great one. No PRs (personal records) but Brent and his mom did it with me. I walked with them so they would do it. And honestly that was one of the best ones for me. It was nice to just take a step back and not worry about times or pace and just enjoy the company. 

That mind set spilled over into the Divas Half Marathon, I did a couple weeks later. I dressed up as Wonder Woman, didn't worry about my time, and just had a blast with all those amazing ladies. It was an all female half or 5K. I met some women who were running their first halfs and they were so sweet and excited. Which of course got me super excited and I ran with them a little. Ran by myself most of it and just enjoyed the atmosphere. I finished this one in 3 hours and 6 minutes. But I didn't care, which was the complete opposite of the Palmetto Bluff Half this year. I went to have fun and fun it was I had! Afterwards Mom, Andy, Brent, and I went out for pancakes at a local North Myrtle Beach breakfast joint!! Yummy yummy!!! Because when Wonder Woman wants pancakes, she get them! ;)

Here are some pictures from the Divas Half 2015.

I met Superman!!! Hahaha!! Well this is it for this blog, hopefully it won't be so long until the next one!! Until then happy running!

Friday, March 13, 2015

I'm Here! Quick Update.

Oh my! How did it become March already?
I know I haven't been following through with my goal to blog more but some other things took over.

It's been a whirlwind of crazy. 
January was a complete blur. I think last time I wrote was about building us a dojo in our garage.
Yeah...that didn't happen. Our vacation was cut short because the guy that we hired to run the route, he had truck problems for the first half of the week. 
Then whatever couple days we could salvage from that week went spent driving back and forth to Columbia.


As y'all know, my Grandma suffered from Alzheimer's/Dementia for the past few years. 
And around the middle of January she got increasingly worse and passed away January 21st. 
Not going to lie, I took it hard. But found comfort in her not being in the state she was in and finally being reunited with my Grandpa. I also was extremely honored, when my Aunts asked me to participate in her memorial service. 

So needless to say my time and feelings were consumed with grief and traveling. I still found time to train for the Palmetto Bluff Half Marathon.

February, I really don't remember much of anything from this month. It was probably insanely busy between the Business and the Half training.

March, I completed my second Half Marathon. Yay me!!!

However truth be told, I'm not happy with my performance at all. As everyone, myself included, says I had a lot going on during training. Between Grandma passing, the traveling to and from Columbia, Business stuff, injuries, getting sick, and just life. It was a super sketchy training period. And I know this but it still doesn't make me feel better when I crossed the finish line at 3 hours and 10 minutes. I know I'm capable of soooooo much more. But sometimes it not about how well you do, it's about just finishing and well that's what I did.

I finished with burning thighs, my calf muscles feeling as if they were peeling from my legs, Frankentummy feeling blah during the whole race, my breathing all out of whack, and hitting that wall and not being able to find my groove during the whole race.

So here I type officially saying I am a Half Marathoner times 2. And outside the aches, pains, self doubt, and thinking about Grandma...all I could think about was signing up for another race and doing better in this one. 

Yes it was a struggle but I will gladly take this struggle any day, over the struggle I had before Gastric Bypass and running. Because before that struggle was day to day living. Now the struggle is better than I was during my last race or training run! :) It's truly amazing how much as changed in 2 and half years. 

Until next time! Happy running!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The Johnston Dojo and 2015 Goals

Well after superfluously spending money on a gym membership that, like most people, I rarely use. 
I get most of my exercise on the pavement. Which is well free. 
I've decided to cancel our membership with the Gym. 
Instead we are going to build our own Dojo.

The Johnston Dojo

Next week we're going on vacation. Which means clean the house, yard work, and make room in the garage for our Dojo.
We're going to use half the garage for storage and the other half for the Dojo.
We're going to dig out and dust off the Bowflex, that Brent bought forever ago. Then over the next little while, add a Bowflex Max Trainer and eventually a treadmill.  Which we'll have one of Brent's buddies sniff out a good deal there. This guy can wheel and deal with one. 

So that's what is going on here! I hope everyone is having an amazing 2015 so far!

OH! And here are my goals for 2015!
1. Run 500 miles in 2015. 
So far I've clocked in 12.5 miles out 500 miles. Off to a good start.
2. Read more books.
Thanks to a dear friend's mother, I downloaded a new book. "The Invention of Wings", I hope it's good.
3. Maintain my healthyish lifestyle.
4. Blog more.
5. Continue to save money.

All achievable.
Until next time!
Happy Running!