Sunday, August 24, 2014

Facebook and Instagram Hiatus

I'm unplugging from the social media world...excluding the blog and my fitness pal.

Why?

Because I want to go back to living a life unplugging. I found myself logging into Facebook and Instagram way too much. I roughly calculated, the amount of times I logged in to each sight everyday, I could've gone for a run, made a healthy dinner, spent time with Brent (outside of the business), or gotten back to taking care of me.
There just aren't enough hours in the day to update y'all on what I was eating or what the 4 legged beasts are doing. Something has/had to go. I figured the best thing for me is to unplug.
I've been experimenting my theory with Instagram and it's been nice. I have to admit. I don't feel like a mindless drone. Plus all Facebook as turned into is ads, bullshit, and negativity. If I want that I'll turn on the TV! :)

Things I'm planning on accomplishing while being unplugged.
Get back to running!
Cook.
Actually TALK to people.
Spend time with Brent, outside of the business.
Spend time with the families.
Enjoy the great outdoors. Did you know there is a world out there?! Mindblown!
Just enjoy the simpler life...again.

Nothing to exciting.

So long Facebook.
Adios Instagram.

Heelllllooooo the REAL World! Yikes!
 

Friday, July 4, 2014

Well...Hello July 2014...

Did anyone see where June went?
*in her best Ferris Bueller voice*
June...June...June...

Yeah, June came and went. Hard to believe that half the year is over with already.
Quick recap of June:
I left June with a 12 pound gain! (YIKES!)
I've lost 5 of those pounds already. BOOYAH
In June, I ran the most miles...since my first Half in March.
I realized running in the humidity SUUUUUUUUCKS!!
But I am getting better and stronger with each run.

And June was Hubster's last full month with his current company. Kind of a bittersweet feeling. The move, job wise, was a great move for him. It showed him how to harness his skills into something he liked to do. And honestly, how many people can say that? He matured into a more hard working guy, that will stand up for himself...in the working world. Which I'm so proud of him.

So begins the new adventure, July 7th. He will be his own boss. He will be his own responsibility. I'm excited to see where this road takes us.

Last year was my adventure and now it's time for Brent to have his adventure. Not that being married to me isn't an adventure in itself! ;)

This must be the calm before the storm. And not a bad storm but an unknown storm. After a few weeks we'll have some sort of system. And that system will be our new "normal".
As Sheryl Crow says "A change will do you good."
So here's to change and new adventures.

Since my little slice of the dot com word is in MUSC's Newsletter...I probably should write more...right? :)
Also I may not be able to post here as often as I would like, I post like a mad woman on the Blog's Facebook Page. So like the page and show me some love!

Time to finish le coffee and lace up the shoes.

A quick thanks and an update!

A big thank you to everyone for helping/bearing with me, while I talk out the monsters in my head.
It's nice to have such a wonderful support system.
I feel mucho better after getting all that out of my head! I haven't been perfect, which we know there is no such thing. But I've been consistent with tracking and trying to eat a little more healthyish. :)

Other than that things are rolling right along. We have t-minus 24 days until Brent's new job starts. Things are falling into place. Not to much we can do right now. Just doing the legal mumbo jumbo. Then he'll be hitting the ground running. I'm honestly really excited for him. This is something he's wanted to do (be his own boss) for as long as I've known him. If he had his way, he would've started yesterday!

And I got some exciting news.

I'M FAMOUS!!!

Well in my own mind but you'll see...just watch.
Each month my wonderful and amazing bariatric team puts out a newsletter. At my 18 month check up, Debbie got my blog address and said she was going to add it to the newsletter. And I'm in the newsletter for June!!! My little slice of the world wide web in a newsletter. I'm super stoked about that!
Here's the proof!

MUSC's Newsletter

I've been taking the puppies out for runs with me. Actually it's more like Sally, our almost 9 year old basset hound/lab mix, takes me for a run. And I drag Gus, our almost 1 year old box/lab mix, along for a run. It's nice to have company while I'm out there.
Which brings me to what I want for my birthday, I want to join the Charleston Running Club. I would love to be part of a group of people who *get* my love for running that are in real life. As much as I LOVE my niche of healthy people on my social media sites, I kind of miss that real life human interaction. Hopefully my wonderful husband, parents, or in-laws read this and get the hint! :)

Speaking of running., it's almost been a year since running has be come way of life for me. I can't really express how I feel about running. It's such an amazing, "oh my gosh, I'm dying", "I can conquer anything", "there is nothing that can stop me", "am I done yet?" feeling. I never thought I would want to join a running  group much less do a half marathon or 3 in one year. This is an amazing adventure I've been on for the past 22 months and I don't ever want to get off. I've grown by leaps and bounds. I'm not the same person I was. I'm so much stronger than I ever thought I could be. I'm the healthiest I've EVER been in all my (almost) 31 years of life. What more could a gal ask for?
Sure I've had my days/weeks where I'm like screw it, like the other day. And sure life gets wild, crazy, and unpredictable. But that's life...it would be boring if it was anything else.

Brent and I had a milestone this week! We celebrated our 3 year wedding anniversary! And boy I can tell you it doesn't feel like 3 years. We kept it low key because we decided that we were going to do big blow out celebrations every 5 years. So I convinced him for our 5th year to let me do one of my races of my running bucket list.
Naturally it will be a Disney Half!!
More importantly it'll be the 2016 Disney Wine and Dine Half and Mickey's Jingle Jungle 5K!!!!!! I figure that will be a good one for him to enjoy also. Because of all the foods, beers, wines, and etc! :)
Naturally since we're down there, we would stay the rest of the week and celebrate our anniversary!! Damn it, I will be going on rides this trip. I didn't on our honeymoon because I was at my heaviest and I didn't want the embarrassment of not being able to fit on any of the rides.
Oh no! But not this time!! It's on this time!!! 
I would like to renew our vows in front of Cinderella's castle. Nothing fancy just something fun to do and capture such an amazing moment in our lives! I really couldn't have asked for a better guy to spend the rest of my life with.

Well that's all folks! Time to eat and then lace of the ole running shoes!

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Number Nazi

I think I have this fear of being controlled by numbers. Whether it's what the scale says, calories eaten or burned, miles ran, minutes per mile, or pant size. It's all number control. I feel like a Number Nazi.
I also have a fear of shooting back up to 377 pounds overnight.

Examples:
If I've eaten the not so healthy food choices for a few days. I'm on and off the scale. Mind screwing with myself.
Or if I *FEEL* heavy, sluggish, and tired. I automatically think "OH CRAP! I must be over 200 pounds, which then will magically jump to 377.
Mind you I'm 15 pounds away from being any where near 200 pounds.
Which also means I'm 190something pounds away from 377 pounds.
And I *KNOW* one meal or a few days of eating not the most nutritionally sound foods won't get me there. But I know if I let myself go, that will be the end result.

And that end result scares the bejesus out of me. Because I haven't worked this hard the past 21 months to go back to 377 pounds. The fear though is very real. And most days, I use that fear as motivation to kick ass. But lately it seems the fear is paralyzing me. Which makes me feel out of control. And I HATE feeling out of control.
HATE!

I know I need those numbers for structure. A guideline. A box to work in. But sometimes my mind feels like that box is shrinking. It's not. It's the same box and same thing I've been doing since 9/12/12.

I think I'm self sabotaging for some reason. And I think it's new the adventure Brent and I are about to embark on with his new job. The uncertainty, the unknown, the small things we don't know about, and of course the what ifs. What if this doesn't happen? What if this does happen? Etc etc etc.
I know Brent and I will be just fine. I know he's going to do an incredible job...like he always does. But those thoughts still linger.
For some reason in my mind, I think if I can't control what happens with the new business venture. Then I can't control me and my shit!
Seriously! How much sense does that make? NONE! But it's there and it drives me crazy. So I deflect my uncertainty on something that is working. Seriously?

Now that we figured it out. Time to implement a plan of attack!
Back to Basics.
Protein, Protein, Protein.
Water, Water, Water.
Veggies, Veggies, Veggies.
Fruit, Fruit, Fruit.
Run, Run, Run.

I will get back to under 185, for now. Then I will get to losing 200 pounds. I'm tired of hanging out in the losing 190something. Don't get me wrong is amazing in it's own self. But that's not my goal!

Alright mind...
Challenge accepted.
Time to show you what's up!


   

Friday, May 30, 2014

So Long, May 2014!

Ummm, where did May go?
I just wanted to touch bases with y'all to let you know I'm still alive.
I didn't live up to my fitness goals for the month. But I'm alright with that because life happens.
It's been a great month.
Nothing too exciting.
We are about to embark on Brent's new work adventure. So that is where most of my time is being used at. Getting the new business up and running.  Which will launch in about a month.
He's going to essentially have his own bread business, through the his current company. The Big Company gave the guys option to buy their own route. And this is something Brent has been wanting to do for some time. Be his own Boss. He enjoys what he does. He is buying a good area and is super excited about this new chapter. And, of course, I'm very excited for him.
We're both nervous but it's good a nervous.
We're now in the process of getting all his/our ducks in a row.
There is a lot that goes into doing your own business. From the LLC to insurance mumbo jumbo to all the fine little details in between.
So I'll, heck WE'LL, both be relieved when all this starting up stuff is behind us.  But the company is really great and helping the guys get ready also. That takes a huge load off!
That has been May. Most likely will be June, as well.
Ahhhhh, let the summer time madness begin!!
Between my Grandmother's memorail service in beginning of June to all the birthdays over the summer to the new business beginning. The Johnstons are going to be out of control! :)

But I have to fit blogging in there some how! I can't leave y'all high and dry for weeks or months on end. More blogging, more randomness, and more shenanigans!
Can't wait to see what June brings!
Thanks for bearing with me during this time!  

18 Month Check Up

Don't tell your Dietitian that you have a candy bowl.
Just sayin.
I learned that lesson. Debbie looked at me sideways. And asked why I had a candy bowl.
I told her the candy was on sale and I had a moment of weakness. She said I know why you bought the candy but why do you have a candy bowl still in your house? I was fumbling for a decent answer and couldn't come up with one because there wasn't a good answer.

She then told me we can't control the grocery store or being out in public. But we can control our home and our personal space. We have to set up our house/personal space for success.

*Light bulb went off*

Say wha?


You're telling me if it's not in my house. Then I won't be tempted to eat it.
Mind Blown!
I did tell her I had grapes and apples in the house. And she told me if she had tootsie rolls versus grapes and apples. She would go for the tootsie rolls.
Needless to say when I got home the tootsie rolls went in a bag for the guys at Brent's work.
Yay me!

The rest of the appointment we talked about maintenance. She told me now I'm at the point where I still have to work just as hard to maintain but not get the gratification of the weight failing off super fast. She was proud of me for not being so focused on what the scale says. I told her I kind of play around the same 3-5 pounds.
Then she transitioned to talking about having a cap weight. A number on the scale, that I start creeping towards. I implement a plan of action.
Which is simple and I do it 80% of the time. I take it back to basics.
K.I.S.S.

Keep It Simple, Stupid.


*drum roll*
And that number is 185. Right now. Ultimately I want that number to be 177. Ideally I want to stay around 170-175. I think that is a good healthy weight for me. I know according to that BMI bullshit, I should be 140 something! HA! No thank you. I think with my build, which is athletic. I won't feel comfortable trying to maintain that weight. Plus all the skin I have hanging out, I figure maybe I have 10-20 pounds of just skin. But that is another blog altogether!

Then the rest of the appointment was everyone "Oohing" and "Aahing" at my success. Dr. Pullat actually took pictures and I found out he shows them to people. Which makes me feel all warm in fuzzy inside. And I bragged about becoming a half marathoner, getting in the paper for the Bridge Run, and all the other running things I have set up for the year.
And sadly, this was my last appointment with Debbie. She moved on to another position within the hospital. Yes, she'll still be around but not in the same aspect. Which saddens me, because I adore her! She is great at what she does and I wish her nothing but mucho success in her new department! And Nina is still here whipping us all into shape. Along with the new nutritionist coming in July. Can't wait to meet her!

It was a great appointment and it has been a GREAT adventure.
Now I just go once a year, for a check up. But I'll still be going to the support groups and side things with the hospital. But it won't be the same.

But it's time to close that chapter on being a newbie post-op and now time to see where this maintenance shenanigans is taking me!

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Shameful Saturday 4/26/2014 and 5/3/2014

Health Goals for Week 4/26/14:
Sunday: Rest
Monday: Run 2-3 Miles
Tuesday: Run 2 Miles
Wednesday: Rest
Thursday: Spin
                 BodyFlow
Friday: Bike 10 Miles
             Combat
Saturday: Run 2 Miles
                 WERQ Class

Nice goals! Too bad I didn't complete any of them! Obviously, since there was no Shameless Saturday post last week. Which means no goals to write about for this week. So I just combined both weeks to get back on track.

And all I have to say is THANK GOD APRIL IS OVER!!!! April turned out to be a hellish month for me. It started out amazing with the Bridge Run but after that shit hit the fan! Between the death of an old friend and my great Grandmother.

If you follow my Facebook page you know that she passed away April 27, 2014. She was 99 years young. She would've been 100 this August. Her death took all of us by surprise. She has a small stroke Friday, was admitted and released that night. My parents talked to her Saturday and said she sounded the same and nothing out of the ordinary. Then Sunday morning someone found her on the floor in her room, at her assisted living home. She was then transported to the hospital, my parents got a call saying things were not looking good. My parents packed up the car and headed towards North Carolina. Before they even left the house, the hospital called saying she had passed away.

Needless to say, April 2014 can kiss my ass.

But during my grieving, I came to the conclusion eating my feelings wasn't going to bring either one of them back. It was just going to hurt me in the long.
And not exercising wasn't going to bring either one of them back. Again it was going to hurt me in the long run.

At that moment, I slowly picked myself up and got the crazy idea to do another half marathon this year.
Yup, I doing it again! I'm going to be completing the Georgetown Bridge to Bridge Half in October. I decided it was time to unleash the beast and not fall victim to Unhealthy Lydia.
So that means half marathon training is among us once again. Nourishing my body better than I have been. Lacing up my shoes and hitting the pavement. I have to say it feels good to have something to focus on again. Something to focus my time and energy in. So yeah.
I've already gotten 2 days of training in and eating better. And boy can I tell a difference. I forgot what it was like to feel full! I forgot how one's legs hurt after not running for a month. And although my time is super sketchy, I know it won't stay like that for long.

April showed me that I can handle death. Not to saying I'm going to handle it 100% perfect every time but I'm learning to cope differently versus Unhealthy Lydia.

Well this a quick installment of Shameless Saturday. Time to lace up my shoes and hit the pavement.

Health Goals for Week 5/10/14:
Sunday: Rest
Monday: 3 Miler
Tuesday: 2 Miler
                Spin
                BodyFlow
Wednesday: Rest
Thursday: 2 Miler
Friday: Andy's in Town
Saturday: 4 Mile Run